Rainy days

In African culture, rainy days resembles all the good things because with rain come a good harvest. But to me, rainy days refer to those days that I do not feel so good, those days that I do not want to get out of bed, the days that my eyes are misty all day long, the days that I feel like a huge dark cloud is following me around threatening to drop a rain storm on me.

Today is one of those days. Today is that rainy day, metaphorically and literally. It has been drizzling pretty much all day. I don't really know why I feel this way but anyway, I am so proud of myself for dragging myself out of bed and go to work. While I had to suppress my rainy emotions, I there was a ton of work that I had to complete. When the rainy days hit, I burry myself under work. I usually keep to myself and the strangest thing is that I am highly productive on those days. However it wears you down. Have you ever suppressed your emotions? Like, you want to cry and you have to bite your lip and tell yourself that there's no time to cry, you got shit to do. And when it rains, it pours!

Right now, I'm just exhausted mentally and emotionally. All I want to do is just sit quiet and detox and release all the toxic emotions through my eyes. Writing about it, knowing that nobody will it is also another way of releasing toxins. Now I feel way better.