I am grateful to be a mother

My life would have been completely different if I did not have children. I would turn out awesomely great or miserable. I would have pursued each and every one of my dreams, I would be a lawyer with the highest qualifications, I'd drive my dream car, as I used to admire my uncle Jafet's Mercedes and say that some day I'd buy myself one. I would travel the world without any concern about children, mortgage, school fees, groceries, teenage tantrums, endless weight loss diets and hoping to get a date.

I would sleep peacefully at night without worrying about a sick child or how to make ends meet the following day. I would probably be selfish and I would have never experience the joy of carrying a life inside your womb, experiencing its first movements and hearing its heartbeat at my first prenatal care. I of course wouldn't appreciate the process of child birth as I would not understand how amazingly incredible it is to after hours, sometimes weeks (Jayden) of labor pains to hold your screaming baby at your chest and to caress its velvet skin with unconditional love.

I would never known what a mother experience when her toddlers stumble and fall as they are learning to navigate. I would have never known how in sync a mother is with her child when they are in pain that she wishes to softly wipe it all away or better yet that she wish to carry it for them. I would never experienced the immense joy with every tiny achievement of your child.

But I chose to be a mother, and I gave birth to four amazing and beautiful kids. I felt their joy, their struggles, their pain their happiness but most of all I experienced unconditional love. Love that is infinity times infinity deep and endless. I am proud to have stood the test of time, because of them I stay awake at night, working hard not only to make them happy but because I want to show them that life is all about commitment and consistency. I am glad that in spite all the fights and tears I cry that I have my four children who see my flaws and weakness but still love me and see the beauty in me. I am grateful that I chose to be a mother!